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What literally keeps haunting at the back of my head right now is, well… my studies.
I mean I’ve heard so many stories of students failing subjects, repeating years, etc etc.
I suddenly question my own capability to do so. To carry this course. Definitely, I will try my very best. After the fall of my SPM, and also a very obsessed room mate in Egypt, I’m very sure I’ll study hard.
But how much studying can one person do to ensure he/she doesn’t fail?
To take it to the extremes, is kinda scary. First year itself is hard, what more the next 5 years. But I’ll try my best I promise. Increasing my memory power is one thing. By drinking honey mixed with milk, and also making raisins as a snack. Azali Azlan’s secrets. I’ve learnt a lot from my future house mates, they taught me a lot about Islam and etc.
I think to compare myself now than before, a couple of days won’t pass by without me reading the Qur’an.
& living with Opah last year has taught me to read the Yaasin every friday night, is a must for me now.
My dilemma on whether I should go to Egypt as a hijabi girl or not was finally answered. No, I won’t go there as a Hijabi. I’m just not ready. I do want to wear it, but maybe not now. Some people from my batch do look “serong” at us for this. But the fact is, I know some girls there, whose behaviour are worse than us free hairs. Sometimes we’re even better.
I still do take care of what I wear, what I do and how I handle things. When people say, or hate, non-hijabi girls for not wearing them, although they know they should, I say this.
We’re raised this way. To simply go to that state and jump to that other way, makes things insincere, that is, in my opinion lah. There are pros and cons to it. So, I just want to take my time and learn things first.
Niat pegi Mesir: Nak belajar ilmu Allah SWT. To find the answer to all my curious questions of the human science, and to learn deeper about Islam itself.
Its sad to know that my close friends are flying off soon.
Indonesia: Mid August
India: End of August
Russia: Early September
Salam alaik.
p/s: Rindu kawan-kawan GMN. Genting, jom? Hehe
Salam…InsyaAllah adik can do it..BTW anak kawan makteh ada kat kuantan..makteh ada no. phone dia. Would you like to talk to her…
Regarding hijabi..;)
What ever we do..do it not because of other human being…
Our good deeds that we do is because of our Creator..Why
As a way to say our Thank to Allah..Why?
For giving us the air,food, the water, the eyes, the ear, the nose, the legs, the hands, the brain, the money, the happiness, the..whole world
So how do we thank Allah ..Just by doing what Allah has asked us to do…
and one of them is by covering our aurat…
Forget about hijabi girl whose behavioir is worst than us
Forget about hijabi girl who acts better than us
Forget about non hijabi girl who behaves very good
Forget about non hijabi girl who acys worst than us
It has nothing to do with us saying Thank You to Allah who is despite our ignorance, stubborness keep giving us so much good things in life..SO MUCH we should feel embarraseed if we r not able to do just simple thing Allah ask us to do..ie just put a little, simple cloth on our head..
And dont postpone our Good niat if we can do it,for we never know if we will wake up again tomorrow and can see the sunshine again
